i still Love him..

kiahbosan

He may have broken my heart, but I must admit, when I looked into your eyes I saw something. That first day, I saw that he was him, because of you. I watched both of you, and saw how little he seemed as he sat beside you, as you both moved and smiled and laughed. It scared me. It scared me because I loved him, truely, and still do, yet you were still able to stir such feelings inside of me. You were the only one the entire time I spent in his arms that could have even caught my eye.

I dont know that this will ever be anything. I would very much like it to be, but I understand the way things are, and what you are looking for, and what our situation is. All I can say, is through all my hurt and pain, you were the only one who was able to make me smile, who could get me to move on, and not even realize you had done so. I have to say thank you, and despite that I hardly even truely know you, I would like to.

thank you for the unknowing love you shared..

p/s: aku dapat ni dr blog member aku....mmg sedih...

[ Last edited by  kiahbosan at 9-7-2006 11:47 AM ]

kiahbosan

entah kenapa?
semakin sulit diriku berhenti
melupakan dan menolak segala hal tentangmu
untuk menjadi bisu dan terus menjauh....
Begitu berat beban hati ini
bagaimana mungkin angan begitu terlihat nyata
seolah-olah benar adanya
beraniku jika itu andai...
ya andaikan saja
bayangan, mata dan suara yang selalu menggodaku
semuanya membuatku lemah
terpuruk semakin dalam
ingin kumenjerit, menolak
tapi ku kembali diam
ya hanya diam melihat

winter

this one dapat dalam salah satu fiction yang saya baca...rasa tersentuh...nak share with you all

woman :

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It抯 not because I like his company
It's because you're not brave enough to walk
beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
It's not because he pleases me
It's because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
It's not because I love him
It's because you're not there to catch me if I fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with

Man :

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you:
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty
that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your
heartbeat:
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you:
It was because you never gave me the chance;
You never reached the bottom, you've already
grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with

[ Last edited by  winter at 20-7-2006 02:48 PM ]

Memang susah bila hati telah dicuri
begitulah lumrahnya

kiahbosan

entah mengapa dalam setiap tidurku slalu ada dirimu
entah kenapa hanya dalam alam mimpi itu kita berbincang dan mencurahkan rasa
semalam juga iya, mungkin dibawah sadarku aku masih menyimpan rasa itu walaupun di alam nyata kita slalu bermusuhan
semalam kembali kau nyatakan perasaanmu padaku dan akupun mengiyakan rasa ini
Aku begitu mengingikan angan di ruang rinduku menjadi nyata tapi aku tau itu jelas sekali tidak mungkin terjadi
maafkan aku yang telah menyinggung egomu sebagai lelaki
maafkan smua kepura-puraanku
biarlah hanya dalam mimpi ku menyayangimu

kiahbosan

Originally posted by winter at 20-7-2006 16:47
this one dapat dalam salah satu fiction yang saya baca...rasa tersentuh...nak share with you all

woman :

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It抯 not because I like his company ...

WAhh....this is so touching!!!! thanks winter!!!

razifah

Semuanya touching...tq!

Juh

Best.. memang tersentuh

kiahbosan

When last we spoke (almost 3 years ago), you asked me why we had never gotten together. I blurted out that it was because you'd never asked me, and ran out of the room. I can still hear you calling after me to this day, and regret my escape. In truth, it was because I saw myself as deeply flawed, and in many ways didn't want to change the way you thought of me. That moment has haunted me for years.

I don't know what would have transpired if I'd said what I felt, but now that I'm married (a situation not without it's problems) and I can't stop thinking about you. I think I miss being adored by you, though my insecurities assure me you wouldn't adore me now.

I'm guilty of having looked up your name on the internet, and I did find you. I keep debating on whether or not to contact you, but answering such an obscure question 3 years later would likely be regarded as more than a little insane.

I'm sure you've settled down and are quite happy as well. I can't help feeling a little sad and disappointed that I missed out on my time with you.

Missing you and wishing you well..

kawaii_obachan

Originally posted by winter at 20-7-2006 02:47 PM
this one dapat dalam salah satu fiction yang saya baca...rasa tersentuh...nak share with you all

woman :

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It抯 not because I like his company ...

:love::love: cair kejap... hehehe... :love::love:

kiahbosan

This song is by Rihanna the title is Unfaithful..... i cried when i heard this song on MTV last night!!! Gosh!!! What A song!!!

Story of my life searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong really loves my company

Hes more than a man and this is more than love the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true

and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore,I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be... a murderer

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair
preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek as he reluctantly
asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls
A lie i didn't have to tell because we both know
where I'm about to go and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be... a murderer

Our love His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with I don't wanna do this.... anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

psychomaniac

Isk...isk...isk....  :cry::cry:

kiahbosan

How can I even begin to tell you how I felt, what went wrong, and how I feel now. Two years have passed since the night my heart found love, since that cold December night, when my life was changed forever. If ever I loved anyone there is no question in my mind who it could have been. But I know it didn't end that way.

When we first met I was as pure as they came, and you, you were what every girl dreads to see. I was weary of anything you could have said or done. But there was something about you, something that made me feel like I had never felt before. Every time I thought of you I could feel the butterflies fluttering inside me. When I looked at you, nothing could turn my eyes away. When I touched you, I felt as though we were the only two in existence. Nobody else was seen or heard...No one else mattered. And even now with two years gone, I still fell as I did those cold winter nights.

And what have I to remember you by? Neither a letter nor a picture. Nothing but memories kept within my heart. Memories locked away for only you to open. Waiting -Longing - Hoping, that one day you will return and unlock our sacred moments, so we can share them once again. But as I wait, I watch the sun set into the horizon, and my heart sinks with it. And as I feel the touch of the moonlit night, I hope that, tomorrow with the rising of the sun, I am one day closer to being with you again.

It must sound as though our lives were perfect, that our love was all we needed to keep us together. But it wasn't. Somewhere something happened. Something ripped us apart never to be together again. Something that I wouldn't admit until now. It was me and I was wrong. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought it was all for the best. But if it were really what we needed I wouldn't feel the way I feel now. I was selfish, stubborn, and narrow minded. I was even more than that. I should never have hurt my one true love, but I did and I will never forgive myself for that.

Still, I am hoping that one day you can find it in your heart to forgive me and maybe someday we will continue with the love we once shared. I live day to day thinking of only you. I picture in my mind everything about you, as if you were really here beside me. The way you looked into my eyes, the way your lips puckered before you kissed me, the way your hand felt in mine. Oh how I miss it. Just to catch a glimpse of you I would love to do.

Sometimes I can hear your voice telling me you will never leave me. But that's all gone now. I cry myself to sleep wishing I still had you. Being in your arms again is something that I have dreamt of for so long. Oh love, please come back to me. Come and cure the pain I am feeling. Bring light to the darkness of my world. But is it too much to ask? A broken heart can sometimes not be healed and in the place where love once lived resentment and hate can overtake.

I understand the mistakes I have made and I am prepared to confront the consequences, so if my message ever reaches you, even if your heart can never mend, I would like you to remember that I love you, and I will never be the same without you. You've touched my soul as no one ever will and my heart will always relive the moments that we've shared.

kiahbosan

Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.

Originally posted by kiahbosan at 13-8-2006 10:38 AM
How can I even begin to tell you how I felt, what went wrong, and how I feel now. Two years have passed since the night my heart found love, since that cold December night, when my life was changed ...

miss kiah,

semua ni u dapat dari blog atau u yg tulis sendiri?....

ermmm...its really touching...

cuma satu maslaah dgn perempuan, bila dia benar2 jatuh cinta, dia tk pandai mengemudi rasa, kekadang tanpa sedar dia melukakan hati org yg dicintai...

It must sound as though our lives were perfect, that our love was all we needed to keep us together. But it wasn't. Somewhere something happened. Something ripped us apart never to be together again. Something that I wouldn't admit until now. It was me and I was wrong. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought it was all for the best. But if it were really what we needed I wouldn't feel the way I feel now. I was selfish, stubborn, and narrow minded. I was even more than that. I should never have hurt my one true love, but I did and I will never forgive myself for that

.


tetapi jika lelaki itu tahu, they should proud, itu tandanya memang prempuan itu benar2 cinta padanya, sehingga dia buta dalam cinta.

jika begitu, eloklah perempuan itu pergi dari sisi lelaki itu, kerana cintanya hanya akan menyakiti lelaki itu...pergilah sebelum hati lelaki itu patah dan remuk kerana tidak mampu utk menahan dan menanggung cinta perempuan itu.

kelak di atas pengorbanan itu, suatu ketika nanti lelaki itu akan tahu betapa perempuan itu benar2 cinta padanya...tidak dua dan tidak tiga...cinta perempuan itu  adalah satu-satunya dan ia selama2nya...

[ Last edited by  camarbiru at 20-8-2006 10:17 AM ]

kiahbosan

Originally posted by camarbiru at 20-8-2006 12:16


miss kiah,

semua ni u dapat dari blog atau u yg tulis sendiri?....

ermmm...its really touching...

cuma satu maslaah dgn perempuan, bila dia benar2 jatuh cinta, dia tk pandai mengemudi  ...

Camarbiru....

Saya dapat dari website dan telah ubah suai mengikut suara hati saya....sesungguhnya inilah lumrah hidup...walauapapun people make mistakes dan walau pahit mcm mana pun kita mesti menghadapinya....

kiahbosan

What the hell happened??

I guess i mishandled everything, but either way its over.

I was honest with you from the beginning: i told you i wasnt prepared to get serious, but as always those words are always so meaningless to those who so yearn for that connection.

The last few months we spent fighting, or basically me feeling angry and upset at you for your arrogance, snide comments, underhanded insults, jealousy, demands, and pressure.

I can't do it anymore. Nothing that starts with such debauchery is meant to last, anyway.

I'm still angry at you, yo. You didnt have to leave me such a nasty message and tell me never to call you or message you ever again or that i'm a horrible friend.

I've been there for you since you decided to end your marriage; i witnessed your tears and soothed your soul whenever you needed it. I tried to be there for you, but you just kept wanting more and more. Maybe i screwed up but i never meant for it to get so deep. From the beginning, i felt pressured and bullied by you.

You can't force your vision of your utopia on other people - life just doesnt work that way. It makes you seem so selfish.

If you dont want to talk to me, thats fine. I'm not into chasing people like that. Have a nice life, but what you said still hurts. I didnt shit on you at all - i just didnt become what you wanted me to become. You really need to be alone for a while and figure yourself out.

Maybe we'll talk soon enough, but that was one screaming message too much. I'm a woman, a person, a human being, and nobody has the right to treat me like that. So later, then, if thats what you want, then i accept it...good luck in your life.

nasuha30

so what..?

guynextdoor

cik kiah, r u lonely? r u wify someone now? who r u?

ur posting expressing u r in deep lonely, sorrow... i wonder..

blue_april

huhu..so touching..
am i lonely..?..i guess so..