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Hey y'alls..
Ni just a part of my love life yg aku rase maybe kalau kowg bace, mesti kowg nak bash/hentam aku.. but the truth is, i dont even care cuz i just need to let it all out..
I used to have a gf.. she was nice, gorgeous, smart, majestic, bright and she had everything that i ever wanted from a women and thruth to be told, she was also the solely candidate of being my wife. But like any other relationships, mine also had its own ups and downs.. but i supposed that that was perfectly normal for a relationship to have its own bumps along the path. But unexpectly, on a one fine night, after 3-good-long-years of relationship, she just asked to break up with me.. she claimed that she has someone else that could accompany her all the time..( like i frickin didnt  ) and i felt like i was hit by a frickin tornado. it was a really heart-dropping news to me.. can you imagine a girl who you love so much in your life and would do anything for her just asked to break up with you? it was really devastating moment for me.
i didnt really cry that night, but the next morning, i realised that i found myself drown in tears. Eventually, i was crying in my sleep or i was crying till i asleep ( if that even possible..haha.. ). it really hurts and after 3 goddamn years, it's still frickin hurting. and since that night, ive been in miserable condition. i think of her every night. i still dreamt about her.though. well, to put it in a easy way so you guys'd understand, i still in love with her. The girl who gave up on me, cheated on me, lied to me and im still frickin love her.. And i dont even know why.. My friends always telling me to get a girlfriend hoping that my so-called new gf could keep my mind off of her. But since her, i just dont belive in that anymore.. believe in love, in relationship, i just lost my faith on all of that. Im not gonna lie, but i do have a group of girls lined up just to get together with me, but i just cant. Maybe i just dont want to go through all of that again. You know, the heart-breaking thing. Its just way too painful for me to handle.
i have explained all of this to my bff, and she said that i need to move on. forget about her and just leave all of that behind.. Just let bygones be bygones. But i tried to move and i just cant. I kept thingking about her every single night. Thinking about how is she, is she doing ok, all of that stuff. Its not like i cant move on, its more like i dont want to move on. i loved her too much and at this very moment, i still love her. I know that you guys probably would bash me and so, but to me, SOME THINGS ARE JUST NOT MEANT TO LET GO.. But you know, life goes on and on and all i can do is hope that everything would go smoothly and at some point, i hope that i could let her go, eventhough i probably feel damn regret in doing so..
i know that im not perfect nor i will be, but if i had the chance to do it all over again, i would do it, in the hearbeat, no question.
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MN sapa yg terlepas nih.
sbb ur situation. sama dgn sorang porumer yg aku kenai.
did i know u? 
punya lah ncem. tuff.. all bout him. make me madly insane towards him.
asal pandang dia, mesti buat aku jatuh hati.
tapi apa buley buat. porumer tu cinta mati sungguh kat ex fiancee. 
haha. |
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I find myself in tears reading this 
move on lah.. |
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haha.. maybe you know me, maybe you dont.. haha.. its a pretty common story laa.. maybe its a coincedence ade same story.. haha..
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yeappp.. would probably do tha.. iin the near future.... 
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wtf men. just moved on.
based on ur writing,
i know u pretty damn nice-looking men.. 
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macam penah dgr cite ni.. |
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well, i wanted too but its kind of hard when your mind tells you to move on but your heart just wont let it.. 
So, youre guessing that im a good-looking guy huh.?? well, im flattered.. thank you though for came up with such assumption haha..
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let it gooo, let it goooo ..
go and get someone better la bro ..tak guna kot stuck dgn girl mcm tu ..u deserve someone better . |
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well, like i said, its a common story.. so its not that of a surprise if someone out there has the same sort of story.. 
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luahan perasaan je la kan..since ko pn x nak move on
ok |
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maybe...chantek tak ex tu? mcm nowa danish ke?? |
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haha.. kalau da sayang, memg lagi cantik miss world pon boleh.. haha..
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haha.. yup.. just luahan perasaan je.. haha
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xpaham nok..chantek la ni .. |
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ada rasa nak bunuh diri tak?  |
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haha.. cantik la jugak di mate kite... haha... |
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bunuh diri?? haha.. tak de sampai tahap tu.. sane lagi nie.. haha..
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itu salah satu sebab uols xbole move on kot .. |
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yeah.. probably.. cuz kalau 'terstalk' dia, mesti sejuk je mate memandang.. haha..
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Category: Cinta & Perhubungan
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Post time 27-7-2015 03:00 PM
变色卡
Post time 27-7-2015 03:21 PM
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